Saturday, August 08, 2009

Today

I woke up late today. Nine am. Odd dreams of traveling and losing access on my iPhone. Didn't get out of the house until 2pm. Have a thumping headache that has been hanging around all week.

i've been reading Anthony Bourdain and Bill Bryson. thinking about traveling again. i wonder if i could do what they do. travel and write. more interesting than building cabinets.

something's gotta change. this on again/off again work shit is annoying. not that my finances were all that hot before, but it's messing with them more than i want to think about. it amazes me how many people i know who are not only able to pay all their bills, but to travel as well. what are they doing that i'm not? am i just in a shitty industry that can't support me? did i waste precious finances while i was in mexico? did i give in when temptation asked for further financing? is the world just messing with me (and a few million others at the same time)?

but all is not lost. i feel the creative juices simmering. something will come of all this.....